Chapter 1.
The beginning, Back in a hospital room. Yes, I am fine, I am well. I definitely do not need a room, but i am here. Why? Because my baby is down the hall in the Eastern Georgia Hospital NICU. This feel all too familiar. If you…
I am getting left behind? The life of a mom.
the world keeps changing. I am sick of feeling like I am getting left behind.The life of a mom. I have one job, raise a baby, but why does that feel like its not enough? Because i wake up and throught my day i do a…
Battling the Mom Blues
I hope you know that being invited out as a mom is a boost to my soul. Im home most days, and the days repeat almost the same. I feel myself falling into this weird dark place I’ve never been to before. It’s stagnate down here, its…
Living in the Future
Do you ever find yourself focusing on the future, so caught up with the potentials and the what ifs? If so, you’re not alone. I think everyone can hop into that category from time to time. I find myself when I envision the future; not on…
Here to Experience
Its been a while since I wrote.. thats ok. But it makes me kind of sad. I used to pound these keyboards with vengeance! Declaring my thoughts to my screen, but who else? I guess maybe I needed the time to realize I can pound the…
It’s Just a Baby Story Now
We’re home. It’s been over a month since we left the hospital and are living life now, as a family of three. It’s interesting how when things are going well, we don’t typically have a lot to say. But, when things are going “bad” we can…
light is always at the end of the tunnel
We are making it. Tanner is up on weight. She is eating from a bottle and from me. We are approaching the end of our chapter in Joseph Brant Hospital. I can already feel how it’s going to feel bringing her home and I am already…
A Mom, a horseback rider; becoming herself
It is this most surreal feeling to process. its the feeling of looking out on your life thinking “this cant be real. this is too good to be true. This is overwhelmingly amazing!” I thought. You can feel that feeling from a lot of things, it…
Ch.9 one step forward, maybe one step back
I thought I was doing ok, but it comes in waves. We are taking it day by day, but it gets harder to leave. although it becomes more and more of a familiar feeling, making it seem ok. But it’s not. It’s actually hard. Today was…
postpartum remedy
everything that’s been something has been an easy adjustment because I simply don’t care. Things have changed and I flow with them. My body isn’t the same, I allow her to be how she is. I see online, mommas showing the “ugly” of pregnancy and birth…
chapter 8 – what goes up, must come down..including my emotions
The past few days have been a lot. I think the initial adrenaline has come down and the new schedule is catching up to me. Its like now i realize the reality of what I am doing and what is now required of me, and the…
ch 7 – its the little things
This journey was given to me, i believe, for a reason. I always like to think that lessons i need to learn will appear and when they do, i am here to walk through the misty path to discover the light waiting for me on the…
sometimes the best plan is to just stay present.
this is a thought as a preterm mom who had no plans, that i made anyways. But the funny thing about plans is – are they every really our own? We can create the birth plan, pack the hospital bag, and do all the things to…
ch 6
Having a baby is overwhelming. Going through the preterm baby life is overwhelming. I think no matter which way you cut the cord(had to make a baby joke) motherhood is all emotionally very over whelming, in so many beautiful, scary, exciting, worrying and all the ways…
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