Why did I have this dream? — The Fear of a Short Life 

To get into the dream I had last night.

There is a mini back story. A girl I know was in love. She found a human that suited her and they were in it for life. You could tell from the distance that I was watching, they were building and planning a life together. It was so nice to see two people, save one another in ways. The coming together of two people is how we grow. The exchange of energy, ideas, support, perspectives and love is what makes us better. It can feel like a hole in your heart opened and you give yourself to that person and in exchange, they give themselves to you too.

Recently, this girl I know; her girlfriend passed away suddenly. I immediately got teleported into the feelings she must be feeling. I cried. I wondered how. I tried to process the concept of a short life.

It happens.

Yet, we think it doesn’t. Or we don’t think it will happen to us. Or we hear stories, but we don’t change because of it.

“oh that’s sad.” —  I will be sad for a day or two then completely forget about it and continue on with my life unchanged and not appreciating the love I currently have all around me. 

I for one am always feeling so grateful for who I have in my life. I can’t help but imagine “What if today is the day I get a phone call saying I will never see them again in this life?” That question changes things for me..constantly.

Are we too busy rushing and doing that we forget to stop an appreciate the fact that we are alive and that alone is enough to celebrate?

Maybe the “celebration of life” should happen way before we are no longer around to celebrate it anymore.


The dream I had last night had this guy in it.

He had a wife and a young child . I don’t know how I knew him I did but in my dream we became friends. Oddly enough, I could feel the value he had on me, the energy he offered was so positive and I liked him in my life.

One day he wanted to talk to me. We sat down in someone’s nice backyard with a pool and a beautiful landscape around us.

He told me, he was going to die young. I guess the bloodwork he had done confirmed it. I sat there. Processing and again, teleporting to the feeling of his wife and child. What a devastating fact of life.

I woke up right after that dream.

I felt the sense of loving something so much and then loving it even more knowing it will one day be gone. 

I hope my dream and the reality others face will be enough for you to realize all you have and appreciate it every day.

Life is also death. They go together like On and Off. Both are necessary.

What matters is what you do when you are alive. Celebrate it. 

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